With Jack, I was super stressed from the beginning about defects, about the chances of problems arising (given my medical history) and always about things like autism and... well anything you can think of really. With this baby, I've been a lot more distracted which means I've also worried a lot less. But I feel as though it's made me a little more careless with my pregnancy. I'm not as careful about my nutrition and I'm less stringent about taking my prenatal vitamins.
With each ultrasound (especially the 18 week one) I would hold my breath, waiting to see if something was wrong. I have been so thankful every time I see those four healthy heart chambers working hard, just like they should. And every time I hear the words "The baby looks fine." More and more it feels like the odds are against us. So I'm that much more thankful when I hear good news. As with Jack, I'm at the point now where I just want this baby "out" so I can see him and count his toes and fingers and no longer wonder if everything's truly ok.
Which is why I'm so grateful for prayer, and for the comfort and solace it brings to my soul in those moments when I remember that God is in total control of what's happening with our baby. That no matter what happens, its His plan and there are no accidents or mistakes along the way - at least not on His end of things. That's what I've learned from the parents of Bowen and Issac. Their unwavering faith in the face of what would have given any person reason to doubt is humbling. Please take a moment to read a little of their stories, and to keep these precious babies in your prayers.
(side note: I don't personally know either of these families; I just happened across their blogs through other people)
Which is why I'm so grateful for prayer, and for the comfort and solace it brings to my soul in those moments when I remember that God is in total control of what's happening with our baby. That no matter what happens, its His plan and there are no accidents or mistakes along the way - at least not on His end of things. That's what I've learned from the parents of Bowen and Issac. Their unwavering faith in the face of what would have given any person reason to doubt is humbling. Please take a moment to read a little of their stories, and to keep these precious babies in your prayers.
(side note: I don't personally know either of these families; I just happened across their blogs through other people)
totally read about baby Isaac too.
ReplyDeletehis parents are amazing. the Lord has given them so much peace it's stunning. and heart breaking at the same time.
I just came across your blog through Andrea at Whispers in the Silence....I am a mother to a little boy who is now 13 months. I think the thing that I have learned the most during pregnancy and now as a mom is trusting in the Lord. Pregnancy is such a test of faith as it really is out of your hands, you just have to trust that God is the creator and he is in control. Those are such easy words to type and say, but can be so hard to do sometimes. Worry is a constant battle for me and I cling to God's peace and comfort daily. I had no idea that being a mom would be so hard...but it's such an incredible blessing. Congratulations on your pregnancy!
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